Sorry I've been away for so long but this teaching thing is INTENSE!!! I can honestly say student teaching didn't prepare me for this. Some days I feel like I've made a mistake other days I wonder why i didn't become a teacher sooner.
The group of kids I work with are a doozy! I love them all for their individuality and their personalities but I have a few that I often question their home lives... It seems like Mom & Dad don't discipline them at all. I can be in the middle of a lesson and if I have to call someone out about playing with something in their desk he will be my echo... I have another that is so happy to be a kid he's always trying to do something to keep everyone laughing & smiling; his mom is totally on board with me but it doesn't really seem to phase him because when he comes back the next day it's like nothing happened...I have few who think they are better than the other kids, and then I have those that just think the rules don't apply to them. I was so shocked that these kids have no manners, when I call their names a few will say yeah?! like I'm getting on their nerves.
None of the kids say yes ma'am which to me is strange "only because I was raised to do so"
They refuse to pay attention while I'm giving directions and it is truly to the point where I find myself repeating myself so much I second guess what I might have said. Just yesterday I was giving a spelling test and I looked up and a few of the kids were just staring off in space and weren't even taking the test!!!!!
All of my classroom management tactics haven't worked and it's like whenever someone tries to give me a suggestion I hate being that person saying well I've done this or I've done that but it's true...
I pray everyday that the kids will listen and retain all the info needed because being a first year teacher (being black) and working at this type of school where the parents are mostly well to do ... makes things hard for me. I want my kids to do an amazing job on the bench marks & eog's but I'm terrified that they aren't and I'm going to be the blame..
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